solidarity for Assange…

On seeing a meme post on Solidarity Scot’s Facebook timeline today, quoting the great, John MaClean, that said,

I wish no harm to any human being, but I, as one man, am going to exercise my freedom of speech. No human being on the face of this earth, no government, is going to take from me my right to speak, my right to protest against wrong, my right to do everything that is for the benefit of mankind, I am not here then as the accused, I am here as the accuser of capitalism dripping with blood from head to foot”.

my immediate next thought was of Julian Assange, Australian journalist presently entering his 9th year of arbitrary detention in political asylum in the Ecuadorian Embassy, Hans Crescent London. Where he sought political asylum in 2012, when it became clear that his life was at risk of jeopardy having been threatened by several powerful & affluent American politicians and media commentators, for publishing documents exposing war crimes & corruption by world leaders, corporate criminals & politicians from around the world, including the USA & UK.  (1)

I have absolutely no doubt John MaClean would have stood in Solidarity with those who travel from around the world to join the ongoing vigils outside the Ecuadorian Embassy in support of Julian Assange & Wikileaks.org.

Assange’s fight, & plight has come to represent a symbolic last stand for Human Rights, freedom of speech & expression & the free press.

Julian Assange, as the founder of Wikileaks, from the beginning of his Wikileaks journey, sought as an investigative journalist to hold governments and corporate criminals accountable to the public who they are meant to represent.

Wikileaks.org, boast a 100% accuracy in the files and documents it publishes, and many of these files have been used in courts of law around the world to bring criminals to book and serve justice. (2)

Since Mr Assange first found himself the subject of allegations of impropriety in Sweden, allegations which he was never charged with, that were reported & shown to be subject of much inconsistency & uncorroborated evidence, which were dropped by complainants & the case closed by Swedish prosecutors Marrianne NY in 2017. (3) (4)

However, it should be noted that from the beginning of his ordeal Julian Assange has made ever attempt to cooperate with authorities both in Sweden and the UK, as the timeline of his ordeal reflects.

Julian surrendered himself to Swedish authorities for questioning before leaving Sweden and was granted permission to leave, and given the belief, the case against him was closed, before Marianne NY, reopened the case and began her pursuit, and what some might suggest, a vendetta against Mr Assange.
Assange also surrendered himself to Uk police when it became known to him that the allegations against him in Sweden had been reopened and he was sought for questioning. (5)

Indeed, during that period in 2010, Julian Assange was subjected to a period of imprisonment in London, despite no charges ever having been made against him.
In addition on his release from prison he agreed to house arrest and being tagged, and while Swedish & UK officials conspired to delay justice, which recent FOI documents released to Italian investigative journalist Stefani Maurizi reflect,

“The then Crown Prosecution lawyer, Paul Close, wrote to his counterparts Ola Lofgren and Marianne Ny in Sweden in 2011 repeating his earlier advice that “in my view, it would not be prudent for the Swedish authorities to try to interview the defendant in the UK”. (6)

Even after seeking political asylum in the Ecuadorian Embassy, Julian Assange and his legal team were doing everything within their power to resolve the issues to question him in relation to the allegations against him, and indeed to secure his safe passage onward to Equador or somewhere he would be safe from extradition to the United States where he believed his life would be at risk, and he may face espionage allegations and the death penalty. These fears of extradition which the US denied, but which have now been shown to be justified and true. (7) (8)
Reflecting further, that throughout his ordeal, it is not Mr Assange who has sought to mislead the public, quite the opposite, while he has told the truth, it is those who seek to silence and harm him who have offered falsehoods and blatant lies, to divert and delay the course of justice, while adding stress and harm to Julian’s health conditions affected by the conditions of his arbitrary detention, & political asylum. (9)

In recent days Julian Assange’s plight has been back in the headlines as he ends his eighth year of arbitrary detention, with a visit on 21st December, from his father John Shipton & German MP’s, Sevim Dagdelen and Heike Hansel. (10)

Interviewed outside the Ecuadorian Embassy, Mr Shipton expressed his concerns about his sons declining health, resulting from six years without access to natural sunlight, fresh air & exercise.
Mr Shipton said it was time his son’s torment ended. (11)

I agree with Julian’s father.

Torment and abuse of Julian Assange’s human rights that have now, somewhat ironically, become part of the political asylum conditions, since the governance of Equador, no longer under the precedence of Rafael Correra, but governed by the dictate of its new precedent Lenin Moreno, who has succumbed to the pressures & bribes of America and the IMF.

Since March 28th 2018, Moreno has made radical changes to the terms of Julian Assange’s asylum conditions issuing strict rules that in practice violate not only Julian’s human rights but the human rights of lawyers and other people wishing to visit Julian. All visitors, including lawyers, have to surrender their phones and devices and adhere to strict communication protocols that breach normal standards.

The Embassy has also cut off his access to the internet, restricted his visiting hours and introduced charges for various things including phone calls. These new rules have further isolated Mr Assange who is now said to be 80% isolated for humane interactions and contact (12)

On the 21st December, the United Nations working group on arbitrary detention,  OHCHC/ WGAD, experts reiterated that UK government should honour rights obligations and let Mr Julian Assange leave Ecuador embassy in London freely.

They stated,

“States that are based upon and promote the rule of law do not like to be confronted with their own violations of the law, that is understandable. But when they honestly admit these violations, they do honour the very spirit of the rule of law, earn enhanced respect for doing so, and set worldwide commendable examples,”

So, all these facts considered, I go back to the quote that prompted these thoughts about the plight of Julian Assange, the quote by the great John MaClarn, I saw posted on Solidarity Scots facebook timeline, and I stand with Assange as I have done for the past nine years in defence of human rights.

I feel great shame that no Scottish or UK MP’s were signatories of a letter signed by over 30 European parliamentarians, to the UN Secretary-General, demanding UK government abide by the findings of the OHCHC/ WGAD.

And I ask my comrades to stand with me against the Westminster Tyrants and their corporate cronies, and co-conspirators who have conspired to silence Julian Assange and abused, not only his human rights, but his rights of political asylum, in respect of the Geneva Convention 1951 , and

I ask my comrades  at SOLIDARITY SCOTLAND, to join me on my next trip to London to stand in SOLIDARITY with Julian Assange, & with those brave accusers who stand with Julian at ongoing vigils, at 3 HANS CRESENT, LONDON, to protect Julian Assange, his rights to speak, to express and the rights of the free press to share, as a humanitarian and a journalist ,evidence of those who stand accused of abuse , these capitalist tyrants,  as I know the great John MaClean would have stood with me in protest for the rights of JULIAN ASSANGE and others like him, who speak to oppose and expose the kind of abuses Julian Assange has suffered these past 9 years.
referances
1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZuQW0US2sJw&t=8s 

2. https://wikileaks.org/

3. https://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/julian-assange-timeline-wikileaks-founder-five-years-ecuador-embassy-sweden-sexual-assault-a7745291.html
4. https://www.thelocal.se/20170519/breaking-sweden-lifts-arrest-warrant-against-julian-assange-and-ends-investigation
5. https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/worldnews/wikileaks/8187575/Julian-Assange-WikiLeaks-chief-held-in-British-prison-on-rape-charge.html
6. https://www.computerweekly.com/news/252452830/Police-challenged-over-refusal-to-disclose-files-on-WikiLeaks-staff 
7. https://justice4assange.com/extraditing-assange.html
8. https://consortiumnews.com/tag/stefania-maurizi/
9. https://www.cnbc.com/2018/11/16/doj-mistakenly-reveals-indictment-against-wikileaks-julian-assange.html
10. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2z607m-zX4
11. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pBV3u5CiUsg
12. https://www.nytimes.com/2018/03/28/world/europe/julian-assange-internet-ecuador.html
13. https://www.ohchr.org/EN/NewsEvents/Pages/DisplayNews.aspx?NewsID=24042

 

Grenfell tower fire

It been a while since I posted anything here, and I certainly didn’t expect to be writing about such a tragic event like the Grenfell tower fire in London this week.

I had been basking in the joy and blessing of my new granddaughters birth on the 11th June, and had just returned from dropping my youngest son at Glasgow airport , he and his girlfriend had flew in to meet his elder brothers new baby and were heading back to Spain where they work after a very short and happy visit.

It was around 4.50am when I switched on the tv while having a quick cuppa before heading to bed, and saw the blazing invero of the tower block and I was brought back to earth with a thud , filling with horror , tears and emotion for all involved.

I’v experianced a house fire, twice in fact.

The first time was when my daughter was about 3 and 1/2 years old and we were living in a tenement on the Maryhill rd above the chemist where the fire started.

My daughter had got up during the night and came to my bed, the firemen told me later, it had probably saved her life as the fire had started in the back of the chemest below her bedroom , her bed was black with soot and smoke damage, and the fireman said had she been in it she would have been unlikly to have survived the smoke inhilation, the whole house was smoke damaged , that smell, it lingers and becomes a trigger.

The firemen were great , they woke me , got us out the house and also the other neighbours in the building. We were lucky and greatful not just for the job the firemen did saving our lives, and our home , but the kindness of the old couple who lived accross the street, who took us dressed in pyjamas with bare feet, in till we were checked over by paramedics , giving us blankets and phoning my dad to come get us and take us to my mums.

Years later when my eldest son was about 2 years old we were living at the high flats at Cedar st, where I grew up, and where my parents lived.

It was the fire in my home  that night, I remembered when I watched the Grenville fire unfold on tv.

The fire that night stared in my baby sons room,  a portable tv, I used to leave on for sound, which I felt kept him company, had caught fire.

It was around 11PM, I’d just got out the bath and was about to do some  ironing, & watch “Cell block H”, my dog began behaving strangly, agitated, and when I went to see what was bothering him,the fire alarm in the hall began to ring. As I reached the top of the stairs I could see the smoke coming from the babies room.

I remember running down the stairs and grabbing him out of the cot, then to my daughters room and waking her, getting them both out the flat, handing my daughter the baby, telling her to go down to there grans on the 5th floor, not to panic, to tell her gran to phone the firebrigade. I was kinda in auto pilot,  we lived on the 11th.

Neighbors came to help, they had already phoned the brigade, wee Jonny Linch , my hero, a lad of about 13 years of age. He ran in to the house , shouting

“Were’s yer cats june?”

Running up the stairs before I could stop him , in a flat black with smoke already filling the hall way , as I soaked towels to lay accross the bottom of the door of the room where the fire was, having already turned off the main power box supply.

It was terrefying, Wee Jonny Linch, came back down the stairs ,

” I open the veranda door for the cats” he said. ” we need tae get the fuck oot a here”

By then the fire brigade had arrived, and as they opened the bedroom door with big sheilds up, the window blew out, but these heros soon had the fire contain, under control and out.

No one was hurt, although there was extensive smoke damage . The children were taken Yorkhill childrens hospital to be checked for smoke inhilation. Where they were met by partner who had been working  at the time. I was taken to The Western Infirmary, accompanied by Charlie the local beat policeman, an aquaintance through the dance club I ran for local kids. He who had just finnished his shift and offered to keep me company at the hospital while I went through the blood test and waited for the all clear. I was greatful, for his comforting reasurances and kind words during those frightening , anxious , caotic initial hours after the incident.

It probably seems strange , but I don’t remember the date of either of these fires I experianced. Nor  do I remember what I had been doing early on the days they happened.

All I remember is the fear, the anxciety, the smell, and the stinging eyes from the smoke. I remeber the proffesionalism of the emergancy services and what they did , their bravery.

I remember how Charlie,  who went above and beyond the call of his duty..

I remeber the kindness and concern of neighbors who offered support and well wishes in the aftermath of my badly smoke damaged home.

I , we , were lucky, and as I watched the towering inferno that was Grenfell, I was taken back to that night at  Cedar st, and tears rolled down my face for those resident at Grenfell, those lucky enough to escape with their lives, and those who sadly didn’t.

I thought of all those people accross the UK who will be affected by what they’v seen unfold these last days , those who live in high rise building , and now think

“There but for the grace of god , go I…”

I know the flats at Cedar street are presently undergowing refurbishment, and I  think of them, because even over 20 years on Cedar st, is dear to me, it was home, where I lived on the 5th floor as a child and teenager ,where my partents lived most of their lives.

I think of all high rise  resedent accross the Uk who will be fearful of the state and risks that may be there and the effect recent events will have on their minds.

My heart bleeds for those who have lost everything in the Grenfell disaster, because let their be no doubt, this is a distaster, and I am greatful to all the heros of the frontline services ,and indeed, the ordinary people of the community who remind us of the importance of compassion and community, and compasion in the community  .

Most of all I pray that steps are taken to ensure this never happens again, in the UK or anywhere else, and as a UK Tax payer I demand a full tranparent inquiry and that those responsable for risk assesment and saftey who failed the resident of Grenfell tower are held accountable and brought to book.

 

 

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The rainbow warriors prophecy & 6 degrees of separation positive health & well being Project strategy

In recent months, indeed, in the last few years, there has been much talk on the news and in mainstream media, using words like PROJECT FEAR, & Fake News and we have had seen things like the Leverson inquiry

http://webarchive.nationalarchives.gov.uk/20140122145147/http:/www.levesoninquiry.org.uk/

https://www.gov.uk/government/publications/leveson-inquiry-report-into-the-culture-practices-and-ethics-of-the-press

https://www.theguardian.com/football/2016/apr/26/hillsborough-disaster-deadly-mistakes-and-lies-that-lasted-decades

The wikileaks releases, which exposed war crimes, torture, human rights abuses & saw the organization founder himself become a political refugee, presently living in political asylum at the Ecuadorian embassy in London.

http://wikileak.org/ 

https://wikileaks.org/irq/

http://www.ohchr.org/EN/NewsEvents/Pages/DisplayNews.aspx?NewsID=17013

http://www.marxist.com/the-case-of-chelsea-manning.htm

 

https://www.amnesty.org.uk/press-releases/usa-decision-commute-chelsea-manning-sentence-long-overdue-positive-step-human-rights?gclid=CMDbu6iA9tECFQyeGwodqioAxw

http://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2016/12/19/daniel-ellsberg-edward-snowden-and-the-modern-whistle-blower

http://www.globalresearch.ca/american-journalist-killed-in-turkey-for-revealing-the-truth-regarding-isis-daesh/5551946

http://theduran.com/killed-in-turkey-no-investigation-two-years-after-suspicious-death-of-american-journalist/

Government crackdowns on whistleblowers and the consequences on journalists, of telling the truth, in light of the Hillsborough disaster reflect a frightening time for those who believe in freedom of speech and expression and human rights. Now with the new United States Administration,& Mr. Trump wielding his particular brand of fascist and divisive views it’s hard not to be a reminder of the words of Martin Niemöller (1892–1984) said,

First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.

I don’t know about you, but I know that this sends a shiver of fear through me, my stress levels have been through the roof and I have been bouncing up and down the tightrope of mania induced by stress as a result of this for months.

This has resulted in quite a debilitating and manic phrase which has left me feeling ill again, triggering paranoia, and actual physical pain. And as a human being, diagnosed with mental illness, who lives with the stigma of this condition, and who has been subject of human rights abuses, and injustice, I am presently ill, physically and mentally, haven’t slept properly for weeks, & have in constant physical pain in my neck and chest and result of anxiety attacks, dire mood swings and uncontrollable bouts of random weeping.

I CAN’T BREATH,  its no joke, I am once again fearful for my life and I question my own sanity.

I can assure you the impact on my family has been devastating, I am worried for my ten-year-old grandson, believe me, Project fear exists, it’s real, and I like many others are victims of its terrorism at the hand of the united kingdom & US governments & their allies. I blame I name them, and, YES, I say shame on them. Continue reading “The rainbow warriors prophecy & 6 degrees of separation positive health & well being Project strategy”

PROLOGUE TO AN UNCONVENTIONAL THESIS by a woman from Glasgow

“A journey of a million miles begins with one tiny step…”
you took yours now its my turn…

These were the words I scrawled across the freshly decorated wall in the living room of the marital home I was about to leave & lock the door on, for the last time. It was the spring of 1997, and these words felt like a fitting epitaph to my dead marriage.
The kids were waiting in the car on the drive, half an hour earlier I had waved off the van with all our worldly goods including the kitchen furniture, fittings, fixtures and sink, which a dear friend had helped me dismantle a few days earlier. I had been organising this move secretly for weeks, its true what they say ” hell hath no fury like a woman scorned”.

I had chosen this particular quote because my soon to be ex husband had used it when he had persuaded me to give up my independent, happy life as a single mum to one, indeed, he had led me to believe it was his own!!

I was a different person then, I hadn’t heard of Lao Tzu, though I had heard of Confucius, because as a child my mum began every little quote or words of wisdom she liked to say with the words “Confucius say…”

Of course it matters little which of these wise men said it, only that one of them did, because as I stared at that wall I thought, fuck , that’s a great quote!

I felt rather smug as I surveyed my graffiti work, in bright ruby-red lipstick.

He’d called me a crazy bitch many a time, now he was about to learn the extent of what this particular crazy bitch was capable of, and indeed, so was I.
There was little regret as I walked out the house, got in the car and drove away, telling the kids to wave bye-bye to the house. No fear or trepidation, no voice in my head filling it with doubt. I guess, in the moment I embraced it, I felt strong, stronger than I had for a very long time, and of course there was an element of anger, but it could be argued that there is strength in anger.

The months, in fact, the preceding years hadn’t been easy, there had been much to contend with, many emotions to mask and hide from many people, and not just in respect of my marital relationship.

I think its fair to say I had several stressful & emotional issues to contend with and not just in relation to myself but also relating to family health, and that particular journey began in 1995, when within days of  my dad dying unexpetedly from a heart attack and cremaiting him, I went for an antinatel scan and was told I had to be confined to hospital there and then. I had a grade A placenta previa and would have to spend the next 11 weeks confined to the hospital & bed rest. They agreed to give me a day or two max, to organise the family and I was addmitted for the next 11 weeks.

I was understandable distressed. I had a poorly, disabled, frail mother who was grieving to look after and support, not to mention two other children aged 4 & 12 who had lost their grandpa who needed to be looked after and supported, and I was well aware my husband wasn’t up to takeing care of them all properly, he was too busy working unsocial hours as a DJ, and fucking about with other women under the guise of buying and selling second-hand cars, though to be fair , he did fit a bit of that in too.

Of course I had no option but to go into hospital for the safety of my unborn baby and indeed my own health risk, so I made arrangements for the kids to stay with my mum. Friends, her neighbours and relatives, rallied round to help mum, and I tried to convince myself it helped support her though the moarning period.

Sometime, later when my baby was born, in the early summer I was diagnosed with postnatal depression. I would pinpoint this as my first proper diognosis of depression, although hindsight suggests I had lived with depression for many years before.

It was then I was fortunate to be guided by a very wise woman called Mrs Forbs, who was my health visitor who told me it wasnt surprising that I was suffering depression given I hadn’t even had time to grieve my dad before the pregnancy complications set in, and there was other stuff too, but as I said that was just the beginning of the journey….

In recent weeks I have reflected on The Hethen Project trying to put together an “about” description of where it began and what it is, for the purpose of this website I realised that I’ve been doing something my dad often found me guilty of , “putting the cart before the horse” because The Hethen Project is a path on the journey of a girl from Glasgow, a path still being forged with a horizon beyond, and it is also a seed sown on the path planted by a wise woman known as Mrs Forbs, but that is another chapter, for another day ….

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The labour leadership…. heres what I think, plus some citations and stuff .

I am not a politician, but I am a 54-year-old citizen of the UK , with an opinion, a social concence,and interest in human rights & social issues

Statically I represent;

  1.  1 in 4 of the population in many of the groupings used to determine the national demographics by the office of national statistics in the UK.
  2.  I am a former single parent.
  3.  I am diagnosed with mental health illness.
  4.  I am out of employment, declared unfit for work.
  5.  I have household & utility expenses.
  6. I have tax’s
  7. I have physical health impairments

ADDITIONALLY ;
6. I have an interest in the economic & social welfare issues of this nation.
7.I have a degree from Wolverhampton university in health & welfare & social policy.
8. I have a family and friends & an interest in their future personal, social health wealth & economic prospects as well as an interest in their geographical & environmental well-being & the political impact of those who implement the institutions and systems that impact all of the above.

It is with this in mind that I feel compelled to speak up on the current rhetoric from the labour party coup leaders and supporters who, I believe , are manipulating media with smears against Jeremy Corbyn and anyone who supports him.

I am not , nor have I in recent years, been a labour voter, however I think Jeremy Corbyn’s track record as ;
1. a grass-roots labour supporter who has stood with the rank and file of labour supporters since he was a young man
2.a man who has spoken up for ;

human rights,
civil rights ,
workers rights,
pensioners rights
equality
gay rights
environment issues
discrimination of race class & gender
against war
against austerity
against cuts

Indeed on every  issue of social, political and international injustice anyone chooses to consider, Jeremy Corbyn’s proven record of activism & office speaks for itself.

The documented video, media, and indeed most importantly, public record, clearly reflects his honour , integrity &  passion for social justice, sought through peaceful and legal & political pathways is clear, and easily found via the internet and backed up by citations available from the above mentioned sources of documented evidence.

Owen Smith on the other hand, where are the citeations and documents that support evidence of his career path, Wikipedia?

Frankly, there’s little out there apart from what Wikipedia cites to tell us anything of value about Owen Smith, Not many videos of the self-proclaimed radical unifier of the labour party!

Not much to be found about Mr Smith other than what Wikipedia offers and cites,

BUT, I’m still looking, mostly cos I don’t want to believe that he is so silly as to believe that people with real socialist values don’t want some real evidence to support his claims, on all levels.

I want to see the cut of his C.V.
I want to see what his contribution to social change and reform amounts to.
I want to see  what he’s done in his life to contribute to social change, things that benefits the people he wants me to believe he represents .

I want to see evidence of him speaking up for people like me, the 1 in 4 of the population as defined by government statistics.

I want to hear his speeches and debates that qualify him to lead the labour party and call himself a unifing radical socialest labour leader

I want to see the evidence of him standing with the rank and file as a citizens representing,  workers, women, children, the poor, the unemployed , the NHS staff,

I want to hear his speeches to stop wars & oppression for all people , BUT frankly, I can’t find any evidence of that from the man claiming to be the man to unify and lead the labour party.

All I find coming up is links that show me him bitching and back biting at the man who has proven his worth & dedicated his life to standing with fellow citezens on the frontlines calling for equality, human rights & peacefully fighting through all pathways available to him for social fairness and justice for all people.

I may, or may not not agree completly with everything Jeremy Corbyn has every done or siad, however I beleive that he has proven himself a man of concience, of honour, of integrity , of respect , and most important of all, a man of the people who speaks honestly & candidly about his political & social beleives and who has citable evedence that reflect his practice of persuing his goals in a humble & honest manner.

I cannot find equal or convincing evidence that Owen Smith shares these vital personal, professional and political qualities in his mode of operation, and I invite any documentent evidence that suggest he does to be shown to me and and people like me that supports claims Smith is a suitable contender to lead the labour or any political party never mind head a government.

http://www.owensmithmp.co.uk/
https://www.theyworkforyou.com/mp/24797/owen_smith/pontypridd

A journey thru the Italian countryside in Piemonte

It’s difficult to describe the splendor that graced my eyes as I travled by train through the Italian countryside from Milan to Lavorno Ferarrais in Piemonte, never before can I remember seeing such beautiful countryside.

In recent days there has been heavy rain in the region, that remained hidden in the fields of green and gold creating an artist dream, as it sparkled in the sunshine like diamond dust, sprinkled, in the lush green rice fields and among the corn crops that stretched for miles like green blankets towards the distant horizon of black, snow -capped mountains, that seemed to caress the soft white clouds, floating in the pale blue sky, at times making it difficult to define where the snow topped peaks ended and the clouds began.

Between the field’s small canal’s of clear water flowed, shining, as they rippled and danced in the sunshine. Some, I guess, man-made, to irrigate the fields, or perhaps as I prefer to believe blessing of Nympha, Lacturna, Matura, Nodotus & Volutina to nurture nature ,our beautiful planet and all that inhabits it.

Later as I sat alone in the courtyard of my friends beautiful old farmhouse, with its own interesting tale and place in local history.

Watching the moon float in a dark blue sky surrounded by sparkling stars I felt touched by the spirit’s in the sky and lush field’s that surrounded me. Sitting quietly ,this old Heathen gave her own quiet thanks to the gods, and spirits that I could feel filling my soul with a deep sence of peace and joy, the likes of which I have not felt for many a day.  I felt greatful & blessed to have friends who lived in such a paradise whose hospitality and kindness allowed me to experienceDSC_0959 such beauty and splendor of nature , that made me feel glad and thankful to be alive.

 

 

old friends…

I felt sad today, and it came on me very suddenly and caught me off guard.

I feel it relevant to the Hethen Project as it happened in a place where my writing and arts as a therapy began almost 20 years ago, so let me give you some background.

In 1995 following a very difficult pregnancy with eleven weeks confined to the maternity ward & the birth of my youngest son I suffered from post natal depression, I was put on anti depressants but they really were not helping me at all, if anything I felt worse. My health visitor a wonder lady and beautiful soul, Elizabeth Forbs, recommended I find something for me, some June time she called it , away from family , home and responsibilities, my hobbies, she asked what my interest were and when I told her she recommended I contact the Harbour Arts Center in Irvine and join some groups, so I did.

I joined the writers group and the drama group and I know now, much better than I realized at the time, just how much that put me on the road to recovery, and finding a little of the me I hadn’t realized I’d lost, at that time.

When my problems relating to the issues I had in 2007-20011-12 which are reflected in the Justice uk style section of the Hethen Project which relates to things I was posting about on various social media websites, blog spot entries and facebook pages which i got locked out of accused of apparently being a fake me account!!!,…

Anyway, justice uk style was the seed of the Hethen Project, an I guess when it all hit the preverbial at that time my subconcious memory of how writing and art had got me thru that post natal depression and other problems I was having at a previous time became the link to mesh or bandaid that held me together, where the link conects in my mind between the Harbour Arts center and art as a therapy for me.

I have written my thots and dreams and all sorts of things down since I was a child, perhaps as an only child it becomes your invisible friend, your unseen sister or brother just a connection of communication with for the secret things you can’t talk about to your parents, everyone has these sort of generation issues.

The shoulder to cry on becomes your diary page , cos growing up as  in adulthood best friends are not or cannot always be there, so for me I wrote things down, it was my support my therapy that lightened the load, from there a pattern develops I think and when i couldn’t talk about things I wrote them down, or drew pictures about them, child psychologist do it with children, as play therapy exercise, of course it works with adults too, i learned to do it myself as an only child, so I have a record of who i’v been.

Writing poetry kept me sane, writing Hethen the story, was a way of writing my truth, as I was experiencing it in the only way I knew how to write, I don’t know how to write academically,and frankly, academic papers don’t raise awareness with the general public where the awareness is needed, because frankly, their fucking boring and difficult to read for the average working class person trying to hold down a job and raise their wanes to be good people, anyway I diversify sorry,how I write, well its just not how its done  apparently, but it kept me alive, and it kept me fighting , It stopped me feeling stupid and like I might be losing my mind, cos I knew I wasn’t.

I was totally aware of what was happening to me, but could not understand why it was., all the time becoming more stressed, anxious and yes paranoid, I had cause to be, and to this day have evidence to prove that, which of course in its self raises the question of its only paranoia if its not really happening , which it was , and thus for me it was a were a major factor .

So where am I going with this,

Since I started the Hethen project, I’v been fairly reclusive, paranoia does that to humans, so does fear and bullying, and of course that to makes you the victim, you distance yourself from people, and to be honest, in my case, when I was going through the issues from 2008 to 2011 most of the friends I had dropped away or disappeared, even my closest friends couldn’t handle how I was behaving, but they weren’t wearing my moccasins.

I left Telford and came back to Scotland, not just because I wanted to be near my family, but because between the Telford & Wrekin Housing Trust, Telford & Wrekin council, The DHSS & West Mercia Police I was made to feel dehumanized, and the fact is, whither that sounds like i’m being over dramatic or not, that is what happens when your human rights are abused. To this day I have the legal documentation that proves my human rights were abused and I was the victim of a crime of violence at the hands of police officers, in my own home, who were there on a concern for welfare incident ,that was not a legal matter or issue, I was denied my right to a fair trial and justice for the crimes against me none of which were a result of my errors but by errors by these same named government departments with a legal obligation to my welfare & civil rights, who were frankly bullying and intimidating me, to the point where I feared from my life, genuinely, and when I let it was because I didn’t think I would make it through another winter if I stayed.

For the three years since, I’v continued to try to find my feet, and it hasn’t been easy, my kids and I avoid talking about that period of my , of our lifes , and by and large I don’t go out much, and dont socialize, but i’m not living , I feel like a large part of me has merely existed.,although, I feel there is a reason I continue to exsist and part of that, and what keeps me going again is writing, my art and the Hethen Project which is incomplete and on going.

In the past 12 months I have tried to push myself to move on to the next phase of the Hethen Project and to do that I know I need to find that lost part of me again, my confidence, my ability to be around others without being paranoid or afraid of being me, and so, I went back a few weeks ago to the Harbour arts center, and why I was there today and found myself caught of my guard and feeling sad.

There are two members of the group still there who were original members when I was there twenty years since, one of them now leads the group, a dear friend, who back during that period of my life came to be like a brother who supported me through the break up of my marriage, the death of my mother and visited me on the psychiatric ward with books and a shoulder to cry on when my life went arse for elbow first time around.

The other a lovely lady and former teacher who used to type up and help me edit “A Girl From Glasgow” in its 1st draft., which was no easy task given some of it was written long hand and she transferred it to floppy and printed it out for me and my spelling well, there’s no doubt it must have been a nightmare for a teacher!! but she was always kind, patient and helpful with little constructive critiques, suggestions guidance and encouragement.

Today was the first time I had noticed this lovely lady on her feet and walking and thus I was caught unawares and felt sad, helpless in fact as a rush of mixed memories washed over me in an instant, nothing to do with writing, or art more to do with old friends, the passing of time and how things link us to our past and I guess on to the future…

My dear friend is crippled with arthritis and as I saw her walk out at the end of group I saw reflections of that same determined but painful walk of the those inflicted with arthritis, my own mother had , she had rheumatoid, and indeed one of my last conversations with Moira before I travelled south was s, when we were sat during the break in group at the bar drinking tea and she held my hand and comforted me regarding my mums passing,

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japans crisis is all of humanities crisis

I am far from an environmental or meteorological expert, & know little to nothing about earth sience & how whats under our feet in the planets core works, none the less I am bewildered that there is so little coverage of what is happening in Japan on MSM.

I understand that Japan is a country who’s population is familiar with rumblings under the ground resulting from its geographical & meteorological status, I guess if you are used to frequent lo magnitude earthquakes then in many ways its normal to you, however I suggest that these sort of tremors although quasi normal are generally spaced over distance and although they may happen simultaneously in different areas with different low risk factor magnitude levels, it is fairly unusual if not all but unheard of, that they rumble over the whole of Japan simultaneously, & surely that is cause for serious concern, not only for the people of Japan, but for the people of the world.

“Japan is sinking” said the tweet,

and I am not an alarmist but i am alarmed, which was why I wrote this in 2013

http://junei96.blogspot.co.uk/2013/10/open-letter-to-shinzo-abe-prime.html

following on from the 2011 Fukushima disaster.

Around the world environmental experts have been warning us for years about the dangers of climate change, and although politicians may be making big efforts to talk the talk, few seem to be actually walking the walk,and doing something about it.

Meanwhile as the environment and planet, and thus humanity comes under attack as a result of corporate madness,not least from the nuclear energy & fossil fuel industries, the masses go about their day to day business in blind ignorance of the very real & pending threat to life & planet ignoring the warnings of nature & environmental activist who desperately cry WAKE UP.

And how much of this crisis is a result of weather modification, geo engineering and the nuclear insanity of the past 60 + years?

There can surely be little doubt that the Fukushima disaster and on going meltdown & leak crisis has played its part on what is happening in Japan and the whole pacific region, in fact, i’ll go further, as we see environmental chaos around the world as a result of climate change & fossil fuel extraction, pollution & nuclear fallout or waste whither that be from testings, war crimes or the effects of waste product & or from energy plants or depleted munitions.

I am aware that if Japan is sinking there is little to nothing we can do to stop it but surely there should be some sort of contingency plan to save the people & wildlife inhabitants of that nation, or should we Just shrug our shoulders and say thats a shame, as we wait for them all to disappear into the earth’s core and say oops didn’t see that coming!

I am appalled like many others at what our species is doing to this beautiful planet we live on.

I know we cannot change or eradicate the damage we have done but should we not at very least be doing something more to slow down & try to counterbalance the effect of it all now, should we not be seriously making big efforts to preserve our planet & eliminate the risks where & with what means we can with the knowledge & expertise of those who know about these things?

Or should we just think fuck it, the world gonna end soon lets sit back eat tacos and chocolate & drink pop while waiting to die?

It all just saddens me greatly, not because I fear dying but because I feel what a regrettable and shameful end mankind has brought upon this wonderful planet and all that dwells upon it.

http://sciencythoughts.blogspot.jp/2014/08/eruptionand-pyroclastic-flow-on-mount.html

http://ameblo.jp/akiva/

https://scholar.google.co.uk/scholar?q=climate+change+crisis&hl=en&as_sdt=0&as_vis=1&oi=scholart&sa=X&ei=LhdqVbuHHYWa7Abs-IGoCA&ved=0CCcQgQMwAA

https://scholar.google.co.uk/scholar?q=geo+engineering+climate+change&hl=en&as_sdt=0&as_vis=1&oi=scholart&sa=X&ei=eRdqVfPxBaau7gbusoD4Bw&ved=0CB8QgQMwAA

http://www.globalresearch.ca/haarp-secret-weapon-used-for-weather-modification-electromagnetic-warfare/20407